Hari sabtu kemaren, disini hari libur nasional, toko2 pada tutup…

Terkurung di kamar bersama powerpoint, persiapan presentasi minggu depan…

Kelaperan… Buka lemari makanan dan kulkas…

Hmmm… Akhirnya memutuskan untuk masak aja deh…

Rebus makaroni… kasih margarin biar gak lengket… kasih bumbu dikit… tambah herb sama paprika bubuk…

Trus tumis bawang bombay dan paprika… tambah frozen mix veggies… masukin irisan wortel yg udah direndem air panas dan irisan jamur… Kasih taburan basil sama parsley… tambah merica… dan masukin herring kalengan lengkap dgn saus tomatnya (gak ada sarden sih)… Dan tak lupa, kasih irisan ketimun!! ^.^

Tutup wajannya, masak pakai panas rendah selama 10 menitan…

Eh jadinya enak juga! ^_^ hehe… quite impressed with myself, lol…

tampak atas…

Close-up

Soooo, was working on my take home exam last nite, but finished it earlier than I expected…

Unfortunately my mind was already set on overdrive by that time… So… there I was, lying sleepless in my bed, unable to stop my train of thoughts for a couple of hours…

Ended up thinking about how lucky I am in life so far…

Having a loving family, that supports my actions and decisions…

Despite not having a ’special someone’ in my life at the moment, I have a great group of loving and caring friends who are always there for me (love you guys!)

Though I don’t have any siblings, I have great cousins who are probably the closest thing I could ever get to having real brothers and sisters, and I’m really glad I have them in my life =) (love you guys as well!)

Being able to study in the field of my choice, and doing it in such a beautiful city, together with an awesome group of ‘professionals’ (Lagutov 2008) lol… (Hey, you gotta cite when you use the words of others right… ;p)

Being in relatively good health, have a relatively good fitness level…

Being able to fulfill my basic needs…

And I am really grateful for all this… =)

However, sometimes this makes me a bit worried…
Have I had it too easy in my life so far? Do I really deserve it??
Will I be able to face adversities if things take a sudden turn?

The answer is… I don’t know… I hope so, but I can’t say for sure…

It amazes me when I look at others, who have faced difficulties in life, problems that are orders of magnitude tougher than I have ever faced, and still be able to face the day with a smile…
Now they definitely deserve their place under the sun…
I feel that I may not be worthy enough to even walk on the same earth as they do…

Makes you think doesn’t it…
Well it definitely makes me think before I complain about anything… most of the time anyway… there are times when I just can’t help it =(

Now don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I don’t appreciate what I have…
I’m really thankful for everything that has been entrusted to me during my borrowed time on the face of this earth…
It’s just that, sometimes I wonder, do I really deserve it?
And have I fulfilled my obligations enough by putting it into good and proper use?

So yeah, hopefully I would be able to make use of all these opportunities, and make the best of it…
Make the best of my time here, and hopefully, be able to make a little difference, and help nudge things into a better direction while I’m at it…

Well, one can always hope, no? =)

Aaanyway, enough rambling for now…

Hopefully I’ll be able to get some shut eyes tonight!

Seminggu terakhir ini dicekoki berbagai hal yang sungguh inspirasional…

Berhubung kuliah sekarang lagi bahas modul Introduction to Preventive Environmental Strategies sehingga otak kembali dihadapkan dengan paradigma sustainable development, lecture2 dan workshop2 mengenai strategi2 untuk menerapkan hal ini di berbagai level, baik dalam kehidupan sehari2 sampai bisnis multi-internasional pun dibahas…

And at the end of the day, it makes me think… What have I done?

apa yang telah AKU lakukan???

Gampang aja kan bilang ke orang, kamu harus begini, atau kamu harus begitu, jangan rusak lingkungan, bla bla bla…

tapi kalau ngaca di pagi hari, selalu kembali ke pertanyaan tadi…

Lah kamu sendiri udah ngapain? Segede apa ecological footprint kamu nar?
Apa tadi malem nyuci baju bener2 perlu pake air panas?
Apa bener2 perlu nyalain tv sambil bikin tugas, padahal tvnya gak ditonton?
Berapa energi yang dihabiskan untuk membuat makanan yang tadi malem kamu beli? Emang gak ada makanan lain yang lebih baik untuk kesehatan kamu sendiri dan untuk lingkungan?
Apa tadi belanja di supermarket bener2 perlu kantong plastik? Kenapa gak bawa aja dari rumah atau dimasukin ke tas? Terus kenapa ke supermarket tadi naik kereta? Emang gak bisa jalan aja apa?
Apa bener2 perlu nulis blog ini?? (hehe…)

Hweh… emang sungguh gampang bilang… Kita harus merubah sikap kita untuk menjaga lingkungan… Tapi menerapkannya butuh perjuangan yang extra…

“Everybody wants to change the world, but nobody wants to change themselves” -Tolstoy-

Trus seweekend kemaren, namatin baca bukunya Andrea Hirata yang Sang Pemimpi dan Edensor… edaaaaaaannnn, inspirasional abis…

All I can say is, you HAVE to hold on to your dreams and ideals =)

bukannya bermaksud untuk terdengar idealis (walau emang sih diriku masih rada2 idealis, hehe)
tapi tentunya seorang realis juga harus memiliki mimpi dan ideal untuk dipegang kan? Sedekat atau sejauh apapun mimpi itu…

Dan kalau di dunia ini tidak ada orang yang berusaha mengejar mimpinya…

How boring would life be…

12.43 a.m….
September 4, 2008…

D-day…

Dalam kurang dari 18 jam…
Saya akan kembali berada dalam sebuah burung sintetik…
Kembali meninggalkan tanah air tercinta ini…

Setelah lebih dari setahun bercengkrama…
Saatnya telah tiba untuk melanjutkan perjalanan…

Sampai jumpa untuk semua…
Semoga kita bisa berjumpa lagi…

Ah, tapi dalam era informasi sekarang ini…
Jarak bukan lagi kendala, kan?
Untuk apa ada Facebook… YM… E-mail…HP… dan lain-lainnya…

Tapi tetap saja…
Perpisahan selalu terasa… pahit dan manis pada saat yang sama…

…Parting is such sweet sorrow…

Terima kasih untuk semua…
Teman-teman… Kawan-kawan… Rekan-rekan…Sodara-sodara…
Kalian telah menyadarkan betapa beruntungnya diriku ini… =)

Thanks for being a part of my life, and letting me be a part of your lives…

Love you all!

Especially for a certain someone… I hope you read this…
Thank you so much, for everything =)

Sometimes I wonder how it would be if things were different…
but hey… everything happens for a reason, right?

Sore ja… Sayonara Minna!!!

Untill we meet again ^__^ Keep in touch everyone!

Have you ever wondered how sometimes things seem to just fall into place?
And at other times… why things come up in the worst time possible…
yet in the end, all seems to work out for the best…well sometimes…

I know there are no such thing as “coincidence”, and everything happens
for a reason…though the reason may not be of our knowledge…
I also believe that no matter how improbable things may seem.. anything could happen if it is meant to happen…
The path that we have chosen… The steps we took every day… Even the
breath we are breathing in at this very moment… Everything has their
purpose…

Yet why… why do I often fear that I may choose the wrong path… that
I may make a wrong choice… even though i know that our mistakes is
what that makes us stronger…
I mean… as long as we come out fighting, we’ll be better of, right?
As they say: “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”

Damn this fear… Fear of uncertainty… Fear of failures… Fear of so many other things that I do not need to be afraid of…
While the only fear I really need is the fear of God…

I pray for strength… I pray for the courage to make decisions… To
take necessary risks… To make calculated actions… To get out of my
comfort zone, and experience life in a different point of view… To
open up my mind to a plethora of new ideas… To absorb what’s useful
and leave out all the rest…

It’s not like the world would come to a grinding stop just because we
made a bad call… As long as you can still see the blue sky… wade
through the blue waves of the sea… feel the wind in your hair and the
sun on your skin… hear the pouring rain and lapping thunder… smell
the fresh scent of earth after the rain… taste sweet honey and
invigorating coffee on your tongue…

As long as you do… You’ll live to see another day…

And if there’s anything that you don’t possess at the end of the day… well you probably don’t need them now…

Oh my life is changing everyday
Every possible way
Though my dreams, it’s never quite as it seems
Never quite as it seems

I know I felt like this before
But now I’m feeling it even more
Because it came from you

Then I open up and see
The person fumbling here is me
A different way to be

I want more, impossible to ignore
Impossible to ignore
They’ll come true, impossible not to do
Impossible not to do

Now I tell you openly
You have my heart so don’t hurt me
For what I couldn’t find

Talk to me amazing mind
So understanding and so kind
You’re everything to me

Oh my life is changing everyday
Every possible way
Though my dreams, it’s never quite as it seems
’cause you’re a dream to me
Dream to me

and it shines brighter and brighter…

would it guide him? or would it blind him?

no one knows…

The light shines brightly in the darkness…

The light that he had sought for…

The light that has blinded his heart, and clouded his mind…

Is this it? Is this the one?

But his time is soon due…

and his companion… May be lost…

Yet he shall strive on!

Would he defy the odds? No one has the answer…

One thing is certain,

he’d rather vanish in the fight, rather than cower in fright!

"Bring them on!" he said "For I shall prove my worth!"

and those who saw him, questions his motives…

But rest assured, for his motives are true.

"March forth! Move on to the unknown! Leave your shell behind, and forsake your worries!"

"If not now, then when? Your age would not lie, and you shall not regain your youth."

thus, he starts his march…

Is it glory that awaits him? Or will he perish in the struggle?

…this tale is not finished, as it has just begun…

and when would it end? Well your guess is as good as mine…

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sooo…. any guesses on why did I wrote this?? =P

tell you the truth, have no idea myself… Just felt the need to get words out of my finger

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I’m done here

So if you’re asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest

Don’t be afraid
I’ve taken my beating
I’ve shared what I made

I’m strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I’ve never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you’re asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You’ve learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You’ve learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are

Di tag ama adun beberapa waktu yg lalu, baru sekarang sempet (baca: ada mood) untuk ngerjain, hehe…

so here goes nuthin…

8 facts bout me!

1. Always smiley smiley facing life with a big grin on my face and looking on the bright side of everything!!! However, I can sometimes be a bitter, cynical person and tend to be very critical about things that I don’t agree with

2. I’m quite shy at first… but I could also be loud, obnoxious, and rather embarassing to hang out with after you got to know me better…lol…

3. Can’t really be bothered to find myself a GF at the moment, and a bit annoyed when people ask me why am I still single…

4. Always trying to look at the world from other’s point of view, but usually ends up over thinking and over analyzing everything…

5.  Sometimes I’m a perfectionist, sometimes I’m really messy, most of the time I’m somewhere in the middles

6. I procrastinate A LOT! (which is why I am doing this thing, lol) but trying to get rid of this habit…

7. I’m considered both a walking english dictionary (coz they go to me when they don’t know an english word)and a walking recycling-bin by my friends (coz I am always willing to listen to their stories but tend to "empty the recycle bin" and forgot about it afterwards, lol)

8. Sometimes I wonder If I am a wee bit lacking of sanity… I’m probably not crazy, but just a little bit unwell

So there you have it

and i’d rather not tag anyone else,
but if any of you guys wanna do it, then by all means, go ahead!
enjoy!